As I change lanes in the journey of life; as I take the plunge into what I aspired for ages together, there is little tug in the heart, there is a little apprehension in the corner of my mind and a tinge of sadness.
Last year has been a tough one. I have felt uncontrollable rage, anger which I never knew I am capable of, done a lot of thinking & re-thinking, felt unmanageable sadness, depression with sudden loss of best friend of 20 years whom I am not able to let go... At the same time, I have had beautiful times with my hero, babies, mom, in-laws and some friends. If not them, it would have been impossible to sail through the period.
Traditionally Sankranti to Apr-May period as been gear shifting time for me every year - mostly good. Some, really sad. An unbelievable entrance into my Alma mater, accompanied by a assistantship, entrance into a great corporation (which made me what I am today), some of wonderful friends, meet my hero & fell in love with, held my wonderful babies for the first time, saw the last of my father, joined the current org, leaving the same & now I am plunging into something I am supremely passionate about.
This is officially to record & remind myself for the days of doubt. This is my to-do's for every single day of my life for next one year (at least!). From time to time, I shall come back to this post & will tick the list.
I take this plunge, to let go my safety net & feel the wind beneath my wings. I am doing this to pursue something I am supremely passionate about & fail, rather than not trying at all.
I am attempting this to have a healthy, happy home, be a healthy happy being
I am taking this lane to love, laugh, dance, sing, bake, cook, smile, let go, connect, garden, teach, learn, blog more.
By the next change over period, if I can do all this & contribute my bit to running our home, I would be a very grateful soul.
Wish me luck...
Photo: Vidhan Sabha Road, Jaipur by Pradosh Nair